Okay so I'm not very good with words so sorry if this makes no sense
Hi my name is Savannah, but please call me E, I am an 18-year-old who was born female. I identify as a female rn. As far as IK I have never felt any gender dysphoria and am somewhat happy with my body. Lately, I've been having weird feelings though. I've had many people mistakes me as a boy in the past and felt happy like my heart skipped a beat, but I just ignored it pushed it aside. I know I am female and am very happy to be a girl and have boobs but I also want to be considered and treated as a man too. I know I do not want to transition or anything because IK that would make me feel more depressed to lose any female side but I'm not completely happy anymore with how I am either. I'm not really sure what I'm asking for other than just some help and someone to talk to. I'm scared to talk to my best friend about this because IK she won't get it. I want to clear my feelings before bringing it up to the people around me. how do I get both? IK I don't want to be called they/them, but I'm not happy being called only she/her is there such thing as being called he/she? I'm not so much where somedays I feel more masculine and other days feminine but just a mix all the time. but also not always 50/50. so rarely 100/0 one gender but not always 50/50 male/ female either, does that even make sense? also again I'm sorry this is a mess, this is kinda how have been feeling lately.