I was assigned a male "gender" when I was born. I'm attracted toward feminine genders and I don't feel attraction to persons with "male" presence at all. I'm interested in things that our society unfortunately associate with males, such as sport, cars, weapons, fighting, etc. I asked multiple people what my true gender might be, and I was always answered that I'm most probably just a straight man, but I just f***ing declining the possibility I might be just male. I've always been feeling a part of LGBTQIAAP+ community and I just don't want to be identified as just "men" or "women". It's just like I wanted to be part of LGBTQIAAP+, but can't. I've often tried to act as I was a genderfluid or a non-binary, but it just doesn't felt right. Is it really that bad after all to not be queer at all? I like hate myself for being straight male, when at the same time subconsciously I like it.