Hey everyone! After a long time, I have finally garnered the courage to post this after a long fluctuating battle of self-doubt and uncertainty. Let me break down my current struggle with my gender identity.
I have been very confused on my gender identity for years now . I was assigned male at birth but I have always felt gender dysphoria. I currently identify as Agender. Other “terms” you could use are Non-binary, Genderqueer, and Transgender. Lately, I have been struggling with my gender expression and my physical body parts. I would always daydream of expressing my gender as female. On certain days, I would always dream of getting primary and secondary female sex characteristics; The development of breasts, a high pitch voice (preferably feminine), and a more distinguishable vagina. I also daydream of dressing in feminine clothing, having long hair, wearing makeup, and shave with little to no body hair. On separate occasions, I would feel comfortable identifying as a male. On those days, I wouldn’t mind keeping my current body parts. I wouldn’t mind appearing as androgynous on any day though it varies at times. The concepts of gender don’t attribute to me and I feel absolutely NO comfort using He/Him or She/Her pronouns. In addition, I have no neutral feelings with my current pronouns or gender. I’m still experimenting with my pronouns but I can’t properly find one that satisfies me. I assume Agender fits me because my gender is undefinable and/or I don’t really care about it. My expression tends to change daily but I hate the he/him and she/her pronouns. Could anyone help me please? Danke schön.