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Hello, I am AFAB and around 2 years ago I started questioning and landed on genderfluid (even though it didn't seem right) and only told close friends. During that time I realized I never "switched" to girl. I never really felt like a girl, though boy was like 90%. I started questioning again and went looking at fluidflux and demi-girl convinced I had to be a girl. Around a year ago, my cousin came out to me (not his family) as transgender. I fully support him but that made me wonder "what if I am trans?" but I didn't tell anyone because I was worried they would say I'm copying my cousin. I am now presenting as masculine as I can get (aka 5 boys shirts from walmart and the most "boy" girl shorts plus calling myself he/him)because it makes me feels the best. I tried to tell my best friend I don't think I am genderfluid but she just said "yeah being genderfluid is weird, even I don't really understand it". Am I genderfluid? Am I trans? Am I a bad person?
I hate my red lips and cheeks (I look blushed naturally)
My fat legs, and large chest
My curly hair
My name (I prefer sam, hence the accnt name)
My stupid girly clothes. Its not that they're pink, its that I look like a girl in them
Thank you if you took the time to help me!