Hello. c: So like many people here, I'm having a bit of trouble what label exactly I fall into. I was hoping you could help me out.
Let's start at the beginning: I was born male. And for the first 16 years or so, I called myself that. Then I learned about the transgender label and for another 3 years, didn't really accept that as me. As far as I was concerned I was a man who wanted to be a woman, rather than a woman in a man's body.
Then I accepted that I was a trans woman and tried harder to appear feminine. 2 years later I started HRT and started becoming much happier. But some things don't quite add up. For starters, my dysphoria was really quite strong up until I started passing as a woman. Nowadays I don't want anything in my body to change (except my voice which I'd like to have more feminine)
But did I really have dysphoria in the first place? Was it dysphoria that made me bitter and destructive between turning 12 and starting HRT, or was that just me entering and exiting my grumpy teen years? On one hand, yes, I really wanted to pass as a woman, but on the other, why did it take me so long to accept myself as trans?
As it stands now, I consider myself bigender (woman leaning). But with all the labels and identities, it's hard to tell what fits me best. I was hoping you could help me with that. Did I hit the nail with the bigender label, or does something else suit me more? Lemme know what you think. Thanks! c: