I'm going to be completely honest with you, and myself.
I have no dang clue what I identify as. Like, I have mild top dysphoria, and I don't think i'm transgender. Genderflux/fluid doesn't really fit either. I sometimes don't have a gender. I identify somewhere around 20% female, and I don't know what the other percentages are. I kind of feel rushed by people around me. And sometimes I have to shove myself into the "girl" mold because of my parents.
Right now, I feel just floating in the vast space of gender, if that makes any sense?
I keep saying that i'm "this gender" and "that gender" and then not fitting in it a day or two later. I kinda hate staring at my ceiling and crying because of this. I'm 1000% sure this isn't a phase. I hate it when people say it is.
I'm super sorry for making you read this and rack your brain for me, but I need some help.