Hello, as many of you on here know, I am a transgender male. I am not out to my parents, and are planning to soon. But holy **** I am scared.
It was perfectly fine when it was ~a month away, but when its less than two weeks, I am really starting to panic. Now, I am scared they'll treat me differently, or even not accept me.
They might not accept me because, a couple days ago, I heard them talking about a transphobic book, written about a transgender female going into women's bathrooms and preying on children and other women. They were discussing if it was offensive or not. They were saying the book was very offensive, but calling it transphobic was wrong, because it wasn't actually about a real trans women, and no trans woman would do those sorts of things. They got it half right, no trans woman would do those sorts of things, but that doesn't stop it from being blatantly transphobic.
I don't even know why I am so ****ing terrified about it. The chances are low they don't accept me, and even looking at statistics, only ~20% of Canadian parents are queerphobic (which is still, WAAAAAAY too high), and I don't get a very bad impression of them. It might just be me, like I always do, trying to hide my problems to protect myself.
In fact, how I found out I was transgender, was I had felt really depressed and sad almost all the time after puberty hit, and I was starting to question my gender, because I never heard of LGBTQ before 7th grade. I only knew about it then because a person at that school (my friend) was bisexual. I had felt like rotting meat trash until I realized I despised being called a girl, leading through a lengthy questioning period.
I feel like I need some assurance that nothing huge will change, even though I want big things to change. I don't know. And I apologize for me consistantly writing really long posts. And, I'm planning for October 11th, or Coming Out Day.
-Samson the King of Orange Peels