I was questioning my gender back in July, then i left in the dust in august after thinking “yeah no it’s just my gender expression (sort of androgynous) that’s making me think about this”. A month goes by, and now I’m thinking about it again. Some character in a game i play experienced some dysphoria and me being a huge trans ally was like “omg no i feel for you!” And then i realised how i had reacted. “...why though?” I had never experienced any sort of dysphoria (maybe some mind dysphoria but not sure). I’m pretty empathetic so that’s why i reacted that way. But even so, it got me thinking.
I’m afab. I thought i might be genderfluid (between GQ and female) or a Demigirl. Back in july i flipped between both labels before settling with genderfluid, but still staying closeted in case i changed my mind. And i did.
So now I’m back to square one again. I know this is a constant process, unfinished, but i honestly wish some all-knowing being just handed me a piece of paper that told me what i am.