I don’t know how to express this. I feel disgusted and confused. I don’t want to be masculine, with bulging muscles, but I don’t want to be feminine either, although I do enjoy wearing dresses and stuff, I just...I want to be male, but never truly male. Maybe something in-between, flat chest, short hair, but maybe wearing a dress or something. Some days I feel like I want to use different pronouns and maybe my gender identity shifts a little bit...I don’t know! I’ve never had this problem until like 6/5 months ago when I discovered non-binary and now I don’t know who I am. Sure, I would love to try out masculine pronouns, but never be truly male. Like...I don’t know, every day I wake up and have a different conclusion, my identity feeling so absolutely female at some points and then I wake up ‘’oh maybe I’m aporagender, not sure again..’’ I just...I don’t think I ever feel truly female, but I don’t think I feel truly male either. Maybe I’m non-binary or something but use different pronouns, but I don’t really know. I feel like I'm muted, or something. Everyone's gender is clear but mine isn't.