I think I may be Genderflux, but I'm not entirely sure though
I'm afab, not TOO proud about it. I'm really not into gender norms. I don't like wearing dresses, having makeup, etc.
I always kinda unknowingly picture myself as something inbetween, even before i knew that gender wasn't only male and female. Even when i look at myself, i don't see a woman, I just see me. I see myself as a slight masc, VERY slight. Femininity doesn't take over either. I would never for the life of me act "like a woman". I like things that not all girls like, so what? I kinda start (having dysphoria..? Or at least not being comfortable) when people call me Miss, Princess, or when I'm forced to wear a dress for an event, or wearing makeup (im glad i dont wear it often, I just dont see the point of it). I really hate having a period, like I wish I could erase it forever. I'm not open to surgery, or anything because surgery is scary tbh, and also I don't necessarily like changes. If i had the choice to become a man, i dont really know how to react, but I would prefer a androgynous body probably.I've started to hate looking really femenine, it sucks. I wanna pass as I see myself. I've kinda never prefered she. It's like everytime someone says she, I see it as "who's she?" and then i realize its me and im like "ok then, i guess."
I've learned that they/them is kinda comfy, and that i (probably am) genderqueer. But i want the specifics, even though I could use general terms, I feel like that's sorta a one-for-all sort but i want to be a bit more "into it".Sometimes, I feel feminine, but thats rare and most days i feel like me, this person who stands between that and this, but looks too much like a woman for my own good.