I just wanted to rant about the harassment I went through after I was “accidentally” outed.
*TW*: Mentions of slurs and verbal/physical harassment
So yeah, during the school year I started to question my gender, as I started to grow even more uncomfortable with my body, and everyone referring to me with my dead name/my birth gender. I only told a select few people and they understood and are helping me through a lot right now even though we can’t see each other in person. But when summer rolled around is when all hell broke loose. Basically people who I will refer to as ‘The Rats’ were now back in control of the neighborhood and that meant rumors spread fast. So when I told someone that I thought I could trust that I’m questioning my gender, you can bet the next day everyone in the neighborhood knew. Everyone who found out I was questioning my gender immediately decided that I’m a boy and my name is Aaron (which yeah no, that’s not my name). I kept trying to tell them that I’m still questioning but nevertheless, in their eyes I was a “boy”. That was when the harassment began. It started with just being mocked and told that I’ll never be a boy/I never be a strong as a boy (you know the small stuff), but then it escalated to getting punched in the gut because one of the rats wanted to prove that I’m weaker than him. And soon enough like clockwork, the homophobic and transphobic slurs started to pop up in conversations that were for some reason about me. I completely stopped going to that side of the neighborhood after one of the rats called me the f slur, out loud, in front of everyone (except my friends who had left like an hour before). And guess what everyone did about it... nothing, in fact they all laughed at me as I ran home. I still have to go back to school with these people... I’m not looking forward to it..
Sorry for the rant... I just needed to get that all off my chest