I remember when i was a smol trans boi and one day, I saw the movie Ratatouille on my Democratic Liberal Spanish Speaking Channel aka Telemundo. It had hella cuts and stuff because television but when the movie finished, I literally said in my head "wow, I really relate to that rat." I still, to this day, relate to Remy the Rat from Ratatouille. TL;DR, go find a movie to relate to so you feel better about yourself. It helped me a lot and I think it can help you.
(it's that frame everyone loves of Remy gagging)