I'm really struggling to figure out Rowan's gender stuff. Like, I've looked into all these fancy terms like doxigender and fluvarilian, but none of them seem to really fit him when I've talked to him. It's like trying to shove a square peg into a round hole, ya know?
He's told me his gender feels like this big mix of stuff: agender, gendervoid, genderless, demigender, trans man, non-binary, and even cis woman sometimes. Plus, he says it's all kinda fluid and switches up all the time. It's like his gender's a whole TV with different channels playing.
Sometimes it's like the TV's just off, like he's not feeling any gender at all. Other times, it's like he's tuned into a channel but the signal's kinda fuzzy, you can only only see half or some of it. And then there are times when he's totally cool with sticking with the channel that appeared when he first turned on the TV, and sometimes he changes it to a channel that is very different from the show that appeared when he first turned on the TV.
I just wanna find something that makes him feel seen and understood, but it's like looking for a needle in a haystack.