I also posted this on the agender page, but I will post here too.
I need help.
Whenever I try to think what gender I am, I have no clue. Nothing. Just question marks.
What does it feel like to be a girl? What does it feel like to be a boy? I thought this feeling was me being a girl (I used to identify as genderfluid), but now I am not sure.
I am okay-ish with she/her pronouns. I am okay-ish with dressing like a girl.
But I would most definitely prefer to be seen as either a boy or androgynous. If I were born as a boy (i am afab) I would want to wear more feminine clothes sometimes, but still identify as a male. So I thought transgender, but deep down, I have no clue. I am me. Gender? No. (this makes no sense, i know)
I listen to this poem yesterday and felt 'This describes me perfectly! I am demi-boy!', but as of today it is like 'I am agender!'
Every time I accept myself, I feel like my label changes.
Why do I even care sometimes? I feel like if the world didn't have gender then I would be happier so I didn't have to stick to one side.
I feel like this is more of a rant then a question, but am I agender?
Sorry you had to read this mess of a post. lol