TW: a couple mentions of dysphoria
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For a really long time, I thought I was a cis girl, until a few months ago when I started... well, questioning that feeling. While I dismissed the feeling at first, I later began to research a couple labels that I thought might work; demigender, agender, genderfluid, bi/pan/omnigender, fluidflux, and even considered that I might just be a trans guy, but none of these labels seem to quite fit.
The feeling I have internally is that I have multiple genders inside me and I cannot count them, but I don't fully fit in any of them. All of them are always there, but they fluctuate in intensity randomly (i.e. some days I will feel more like a guy, but I still have girl, agender, non-binary, and whatever else inside me). And often I feel like I can relate to the experiences of many random genders I come across, but I don't identify with any of them fully, so it's like they're there but very faint.
A possible culprit I can think of right now is some kind of -flux identity, but I'm having trouble putting a finger on the exact label. The closest thing I found that I experimented with was omnigender, but it's not a -flux label and I'm not sure if it encompasses fluctuation. All things considered, I could probably just identify as genderqueer, though I'd prefer something more specific, I guess.
Any sort of body/gender dysphoria I experience also fluctuates—usually I'm okay with my body, and some days I actually love it! But then the next day, dysphoria will hit me like a truck and I'll crumple up in a corner.
In real life, I present as female (though I quite like gender-neutral clothes), and I'm okay with this presentation for now. On the other hand, I desperately want to try other gender presentations and switch between them from time to time; I feel like doing that would definitely make me happier. I also use any pronouns as I don't feel connected to any set of pronouns in particular.
(If sexuality matters here, I have an inexplicable feeling inside me of being the label of 'gay'; however, I'm mostly attracted to men. I should probably bring that to a sexuality wiki instead, though, so that's probably not relevant.)
I feel like I'm being super picky right now, and I'm really sorry about that :( anyway, /any/ sort of help or advice is greatly appreciated. Thank you so much for reading this; please have a nice day <3