Umm, this will be quite long as I've put a lot of thought into it but,
I'm AFAB and have always felt comfortable using she/her pronouns and going as a female but recently I have really loved the idea of using they/them pronouns and use them online because I get a very bubbly feeling when people refer to me like that. She/her pronouns don't always feel right but they/them pronouns don't either. I don't really know what it is but in the past few months I have become increasingly confused about my gender and sexuality, (I identify as queer right now because I haven't found the right label yet). I don't have a particular attachment to my assigned gender but I am not comfortable being referred to as male. I'm going to an all-girls school but I'm not totally sure how comfortable I feel there and I might end up leaving. I don't identify with demigirl which is a problem for me because otherwise, I have no clue. I can't tell if I'm just cis and confused.
I'm fine with the way my body looks as long as I wear baggy clothes that will cover my chest and my thighs. I hate dresses but skirts are ok as long as I can cover myself with some other looser piece of clothing. I also have long hair which I like because it gives me a sense of protection as I generally use it to shield my body. I don't usually feel particularly feminine but some days I like to feel pretty and will put on makeup and dress up for myself. I'm fine looking feminine facially although I hate the way my body looks in bathing suits and other tight pieces of clothing.
My name is feminine and I guess cute? When I think about it I don't like it much but I respond to it fine and I don't really have any other names as of now. While I'm writing this I feel very disconnected from my femininity but that changes on a day to day basis so I might feel very different tomorrow.
Is there a term that aligns with what I'm saying or am I just a little confused?