So I've been questioning lot of things about my gender, my sexuality but still can't figure this out. At first I thought that I am a heteroromantic bisexual girl (I was born female and am a female), because I kissed girls before and thought I was into it, but also I am 100% into boys, but also gay boys. I can have romantic relationships only with boys, I absolutely couldn't have feelings for girls and I don't even think I liked kissing girls, I think that was the male part of me trying to fit in the gender roles of being a heterosexual male, but my male part is obviously homosexual. I thought that maybe i am bigender and my female part is heterosexual but my male part is homosexual as he likes gay guys, so either way I only like boys, but in two different ways, once as a straight girl and as a gay male mind. I have always loved my body the way it is, I am a girl, I don't want to be anything else, I don't want to be a boy, but my way of thinking and acting in relationships is 100% male. So as I searched up the different genders I may identify as bigender or demigender, but it wouldn't be 100% accurate in my case, so is there a specific gender for someone who is a female, wants to be and look like a female but has a male mind? I am really confused and can't decide what I actually am.
Thank you