I've identified as nonbinary for a year now (I was born female), and it feels right. But my gender is a mess, I've always felt some sort of connection to the male gender (since I was 8), but I also always feel a connection to the nonbinary gender, sometimes I can feel fully male but I also fully nonbinary, othertimes I can be demiboy, or paraboy, or like 5% male, but I am always nonbinary, and the nonbinary gender is always the dominate gender. Basically I am always 100%-75% nonbinary (except sometimes I am agender and feel neither male or nonbinary) and I always have some male in me, whether it's 1% or 100% it's always there, but I am sort of repulsed at the thought of being male? The thought of being male bothers me, it just makes me uncomfy, it makes me mad almost? I need help, is there any labels or word(s) that fits my complicated gender?