So the only other place I can think to put this would be reddit but like yeah anyway so here we go.
Haircuts? Yes I am asking a bunch of gay internet strangers for haircut ideas but here I am. so I am wandering along the gender path where I creep from one side of the gender binary to the other. I started my gender exploration thingy in about February when one of my friends came out as a demiboy and I didn't know what it meant so I googled it. I also found the definition for demigirl and thought 'cool' and continued with my day. Next week I had a gender crisis and decided I was a demigirl. About a month later I decided I was non-binary and here I am, June, thinking I might be a trans dude/demiboy. Anyway, to fit my shifting identity I want a new haircut. Back in November I donated 15 inches of hair to children with hair loss (I'm not joking that's legit the name of the organization) and I've never felt free-er(?) with my gender expression/identity. I'm AFAB so I've always felt that I had to fit into one box: girl. And I'm thinking some subconscious part of me knew I wasn't a girl and basically just imagine my entire life of gender expression being that stage of TRANSing when your just expressing your self as hyper-femme (or hyper-masc) to like "woman the man out of you" (or vise-versa) or whatever. That has been my entire life up to this point and I'm not joking. I wore skirts/dresses every day, I hated the color pink but otherwise was more "girl" than anyone else I knew. Anyway I had really long hair and decided that I didn't need this hair, but some other girl might really need it. So I sliced off all of my hair and donated it. the hair that I had been growing since I was about 7 was gone. And I didn't feel sad, I felt really happy actually. My aunt cut my hair for me as she is a hair dresser and I told her that I wanted a pixie cut. She gave me a Karen cut with the phrase "if you don't like it, this is easier to grow out" and I liked the Karen cut for about a week before I went to a different stylist with no family ties to fix it. For context on my aunt, she is really really catholic and I have theories that she guessed I was trans and did all she could to "stop me" some how. Anyway I had my average girl pixie cut of my dreams, and then, I needed it to be trimmed. I was in track and my hair was too short to tie back but so long it got in my way when I was running and jumping and stuff. so I cut it to about 1.5 inches and had it all gelled to my right side (except my undercut, obviously) and now I want to grow it out to a different short hairstyle, but I'm not sure what I want to do. I want to have a haircut that makes me look more masculine but I'm not entirely sure how to do that besides walking into a barber shop and saying "hi my names River I'm trans make me look like an 8 year old boy please" but I'm not entirely sure how good of an idea that is especially because I don't have any ideas so the barber would have to have previous experience making AFAB people look masc. So I thought it would be a good idea to ask gay strangers on the internet so here I am. Anyway, hair stuff
I have dark brown hair
Straight hair (unlike me :P)
I don't have glasses
I'm really active so I need something either:
A: long enough to tie back
B: short enough its not in my way
Or C: is already pointing backwards so it just gets more styled when I'm running
I'm fairly sure I've got an oval shaped face
And I'm AFAB so I want something masculinizing
Thanks!!!! Any and all ideas are good ideas and I'm open to trying basically anything as I've had 4 hair styles since October.
-River they/them (maybe he/they I don't actually know :P)