I know this is kinda long but I wanna add full context. This might be confusing but it's just as confusing to me so any help or advice is appreciated!
I’m afab, use she/they pronouns
For the past month I’ve been questioning my gender. I have questioned my gender in the past but it never lasted longer than like a day tops. It was usually due to the lack of sleep, and I feel like it could be now as my sleeping pattern is currently not great.
I am, and mostly have always been, ok with using female terms, looking feminine and having femenine features, and identifying as female but for some reason I just don’t want to be cis. I have experimented with ftm, non binary, and somewhat with genderfae and demigirl. None of these terms seem to fit and I ended up not liking he/him pronouns or masc things/identifying masc for the most part. I have experimented with non binary more than others as it seems that what my mind keeps throwing at me but every time I try labeling myself as non binary I get hit with thoughts such as
“You’re cis stop lying to yourself/gaslighting yourself”
“This doesn’t fit at all”
The thing is these thoughts often worsen by getting sleep, but I don't think that questioning my gender is 100% caused by lack of sleep because it's still mostly a problem when I'm not tired. I am aware that this just might be impostor syndrome but it gets too overwhelming and I just go back to cis/questioning. I have looked into terms like demigirl, demigirlflux, bigender, girlflux, genderfae, paragirl, and genderfluid but none of those seem to fit either. This whole crisis started after I changed my sexuality (pan/ace to omni/ace) because I really hated the discourse around pan, and omni was just a better label for me in general. I know I may just end up being cis in the end but this is really confusing and need someone's outsider perspective/advice.